“descent”
I saw a scene
in a movie
that caught me
off guard
brought up feelings
I, long ago
tried
to discard
violent
feelings
about a violent
event
that hastened
my already
rapid
descent
it changed
how I saw things
changed
how I thought
to this day
I question
if I should have
fought
if I could,
I wouldn’t kill them
but I would
make them suffer
make them feel
the brutality
that was that day,
uncovered
they left me dirty,
and I stood under
the water
for an hour
but couldn’t
get clean
no matter how hard
I scoured
then I sat,
for years
in a tiny room
of self-hate
for letting myself
become
one of the victims
of rape
ElevenFifty9 
It must be really hard to confront those terrible moments again.Your willingness to be so open will support others to speak the unspeakable
Thank you…I appreciate that…hope it does help someone…
Merle, Thank you from my broken heart for directing me here that I might understand. I’m sorry for asking questions, in my ignorance, that no doubt caused you pain again. Please forgive me.
Warmest Respect and Admiration,
Ron
Ron, no need at all for an apology. If it were too painful to share I wouldn’t have put it on my blog. Please don’t ever feel like you can’t ask questions…truthfully, it gives me an excuse to direct you to another of my poems you may not have read…and that, regardless of the subject matter, brings me great joy. I appreciate your compassion…but there is nothing to forgive. Never stop asking questions
With much warmth, appreciation and friendship,
Merle/Blackbird