#185 of 365 – “insensate”

“insensate”

 

my feet drag heavy

the air feels soiled and thick

 

my mind crawls beneath

an envy I would rather not admit

 

I am sickened by feelings of worthlessness

I try to swallow and hide

 

poisoned by faithless resentments

that flood and won’t subside

 

but I keep praying for different thinking

that will bring some relief

 

and lift me from this hollow

of insensate disbelief

 

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About Blackbird

Poet, sculptor, writer, spouse, parent, crazy person - not necessarily in that order.
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4 Responses to #185 of 365 – “insensate”

  1. Starralee says:

    Oh dear, this is a hard place to be, I know. Your writing is so authentic; wonderful, even when it describes what none of us would choose to feel, experience.

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