Author Archives: Blackbird

About Blackbird

Poet, sculptor, jewelry maker, writer, spouse, parent, crazy person - not necessarily in that order.

#463 – “grist”

“grist”   it all seems so meaningless life’s bewildering clatter the unending struggle to somehow matter is this what I’m here for to simply exist beneath these dreams God gave like some painful grist I’ve helped raise His children suffered … Continue reading

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#462 – “the death of dreams”

“the death of dreams”   they say my dreams won’t come true that I should leave them with the night let them dissipate inside the heaviness of morning light where the joy of lofty thinking struggles for breath then curls … Continue reading

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#461 – “waning breath”

“waning breath”   I fail  in what’s been an unending succession of inaction procrastination fear and regret I am nothing without dreams but waning breath each day a little closer to a troubled death    

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#460 – 1 haiku

1 haiku   more dead in our schools those left, now soldiers fighting just to live their lives  

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#459 – “secrets to save”

“secrets to save”   I want this pain to stop this panic to allay this sinking  to end this crushing guilt to go away I want to drink until I’m perfect until I’m healthy and brave drink until I’m honest … Continue reading

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#458 – 4 haiku

4 haiku     it tears so slowly excruciating, deep; the dull knife of silence       hard awakening my own well being crushed by another’s dis-ease       the air; thick, tangled words knotted up, emotions choking … Continue reading

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#457 – “sticks and mud”

“sticks and mud”   what work is this to toil the mind dig through emotions and memories intertwined looking for something I can’t seem to find   what kind of labor searching through thought wading through battles and wars I’ve … Continue reading

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#456 – “ragged weeds”

“ragged weeds”   I am not good I fall short of both truth and light, but rather walk with heavy clouds beneath a dark rain instead   hiding in the shadows of quiet omission where muted spaces grow ragged weeds … Continue reading

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#455 – “parade”

“parade”   here it comes without you like some hurtful parade   where childless mothers and motherless children walk with raw hearts unmade   filled all at once with sorrow and love and longing interwoven like thread   as they … Continue reading

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#454 – “in the palm of history”

“in the palm of history”     I sit on their shoulders   in the palm of history   making my way through liberties I take as my own without question or fear or cast down eyes   I breathe … Continue reading

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