Category Archives: Denial

#422 – 5 haiku

5 Haiku     on his own grave’s edge he waits in sad defiance daring life to end     a window open disinterested, he stares at the floor instead     so many gray hairs his beard looks like … Continue reading

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#421 – 3 Haiku

3 Haiku   so damaged the space where God’s light can’t lift away his rundown darkness     air, still and sour with so many spilled regrets my brother won’t clean up     who can judge what looks wasted from … Continue reading

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#375 – 5 Haiku

5 Haiku    she strikes her match, sets the trees on fire; she can’t help herself; Autumn     body cooling down anger heating up; massage clients that don’t show     two cowboys taken somewhere they can’t escape from … Continue reading

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#353 of 365 – “mistrial”

“mistrial”   across from the alley where it still appears clean where the trash is hidden and the rodents unseen I sit in the momentary bliss of denial as if danger were averted by a public mistrial the news has faded … Continue reading

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#209 of 365 – “thunder”

“thunder”   my soul is itchy and uncomfortable stuffed inside my achy skin   mangled thoughts and feelings like bent up wire deep within   a rain of jagged metal truths take aim from all around   as shields of … Continue reading

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#125 of 365 – “apparition”

“apparition”   I am not better I still cheat and lie through omission   still sit and deny my own crimes in commission   I have no readiness against maladies that rebel against remission   and I’m disordered and angry … Continue reading

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