Category Archives: Life

#463 – “grist”

“grist”   it all seems so meaningless life’s bewildering clatter the unending struggle to somehow matter is this what I’m here for to simply exist beneath these dreams God gave like some painful grist I’ve helped raise His children suffered … Continue reading

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#458 – 4 haiku

4 haiku     it tears so slowly excruciating, deep; the dull knife of silence       hard awakening my own well being crushed by another’s dis-ease       the air; thick, tangled words knotted up, emotions choking … Continue reading

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#455 – “parade”

“parade”   here it comes without you like some hurtful parade   where childless mothers and motherless children walk with raw hearts unmade   filled all at once with sorrow and love and longing interwoven like thread   as they … Continue reading

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#446 – old shoes

“old shoes”   it saddens me that my grieving has allowed the laughter in as if suddenly you’re not missed like a pair of thrown out old shoes or a balled up scrap of faded print from yesterday’s news   … Continue reading

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#442 – 5 haiku

5 haiku   and still, it rains on like grey has enveloped all that you left behind   I am angry that you stopped taking your meds and then faded away   I am angry that some strange woman’s voice … Continue reading

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#438 – 3 Haiku

3 Haiku   my lack of shock hurts a crushing fatigue like death by paralysis     ache and hope anew heart wrenched back to life by the brash pain of the young     Oh, I hope they tear … Continue reading

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#436 – “stranded”

“stranded”   I am sluggish in this new world where you no longer walk, strangled by this heavy air that you no longer breathe. I drag murky and bewildered as if I don’t know where I am, as if I’m … Continue reading

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#435 – 5 Haiku

5 haiku     wish you were here for me to put off calling just till tomorrow     it was hard talking — you were so full of illness I just couldn’t hear     guilt; for not wanting … Continue reading

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#432 – 3 Haiku

3 Haiku   it’s worse than I thought bare trees that won’t bloom again unending Winter   I wish I could know that Winter here is just Spring wherever you are     I hope you were there we laughed … Continue reading

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#430 – the river

the river   the river is cold and brutal today   rough as it carries my comfort away   the air abrasive and course like sandpaper   my fix, equilibrium gone like thin vapor   I feel lost like a … Continue reading

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