Category Archives: Pain

#459 – “secrets to save”

“secrets to save”   I want this pain to stop this panic to allay this sinking  to end this crushing guilt to go away I want to drink until I’m perfect until I’m healthy and brave drink until I’m honest … Continue reading

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#458 – 4 haiku

4 haiku     it tears so slowly excruciating, deep; the dull knife of silence       hard awakening my own well being crushed by another’s dis-ease       the air; thick, tangled words knotted up, emotions choking … Continue reading

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#448 – 4 haiku

4 haiku   inadequacy surfaces again; I am a disappointment   marriage hurts sometimes a room of mirrors that show only your worst self     when is love enough to erase the discontent disagreement leaves     I no … Continue reading

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#436 – “stranded”

“stranded”   I am sluggish in this new world where you no longer walk, strangled by this heavy air that you no longer breathe. I drag murky and bewildered as if I don’t know where I am, as if I’m … Continue reading

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#432 – 3 Haiku

3 Haiku   it’s worse than I thought bare trees that won’t bloom again unending Winter   I wish I could know that Winter here is just Spring wherever you are     I hope you were there we laughed … Continue reading

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#430 – the river

the river   the river is cold and brutal today   rough as it carries my comfort away   the air abrasive and course like sandpaper   my fix, equilibrium gone like thin vapor   I feel lost like a … Continue reading

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#422 – 5 haiku

5 Haiku     on his own grave’s edge he waits in sad defiance daring life to end     a window open disinterested, he stares at the floor instead     so many gray hairs his beard looks like … Continue reading

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#418 – “broken luggage”

“broken luggage”   he drags along the road his trip, too long for him to bear pulls his life like broken luggage too old and useless to repair what’s inside he doesn’t know and doesn’t seem to care  

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#362 of 365 – 5 Haiku

5 Haiku   steel clouds, so heavy with the weight of yesterday’s dreams―yet to come true     clouds, pregnant and low dark sky choking back the rain tears behind my eyes     God smothered under the misery of … Continue reading

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#335 of 365 – 1 Haiku

1 Haiku   sharp and final blade kneeling on the precipice of an end to pain    

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