Category Archives: Poetry

#459 – “secrets to save”

“secrets to save”   I want this pain to stop this panic to allay this sinking  to end this crushing guilt to go away I want to drink until I’m perfect until I’m healthy and brave drink until I’m honest … Continue reading

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#458 – 4 haiku

4 haiku     it tears so slowly excruciating, deep; the dull knife of silence       hard awakening my own well being crushed by another’s dis-ease       the air; thick, tangled words knotted up, emotions choking … Continue reading

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#457 – “sticks and mud”

“sticks and mud”   what work is this to toil the mind dig through emotions and memories intertwined looking for something I can’t seem to find   what kind of labor searching through thought wading through battles and wars I’ve … Continue reading

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#456 – “ragged weeds”

“ragged weeds”   I am not good I fall short of both truth and light, but rather walk with heavy clouds beneath a dark rain instead   hiding in the shadows of quiet omission where muted spaces grow ragged weeds … Continue reading

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#455 – “parade”

“parade”   here it comes without you like some hurtful parade   where childless mothers and motherless children walk with raw hearts unmade   filled all at once with sorrow and love and longing interwoven like thread   as they … Continue reading

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#454 – “in the palm of history”

“in the palm of history”     I sit on their shoulders   in the palm of history   making my way through liberties I take as my own without question or fear or cast down eyes   I breathe … Continue reading

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#452 – “memory’s rain”

“memory’s rain”   I fold up my recollections try to fit them into the hour but they spread like water spilled from a glass flowing across the surface trickling down the edgeless day until drops have gotten everywhere impossible to … Continue reading

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#451 – “reverie”

“reverie”   and still each tomorrow brings thoughts of yesterday caught in a reverie of too much time   to wait for a later that never would come and a plan for things to do that never got done  

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#450 – “wounded day”

“wounded day”   stuck again inside tremors of sadness and shock   a nightmare hall with no windows or doors to unlock   I walk on a gravel of unwanted change   on a new path that feels otherworldly and … Continue reading

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#449 – “smooth stone”

“smooth stone”   I sit as a sharp despair swallows the moment, your absence, like a Winter refusing the Spring, rips through the hour and into the night like water creasing the smooth stone of time’s reprieve till it’s grooved … Continue reading

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