Category Archives: Self-Forgiveness

#459 – “secrets to save”

“secrets to save”   I want this pain to stop this panic to allay this sinking  to end this crushing guilt to go away I want to drink until I’m perfect until I’m healthy and brave drink until I’m honest … Continue reading

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#458 – 4 haiku

4 haiku     it tears so slowly excruciating, deep; the dull knife of silence       hard awakening my own well being crushed by another’s dis-ease       the air; thick, tangled words knotted up, emotions choking … Continue reading

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#391 – “locked hands”

“locked hands”   I make stupid mistakes that twist up my esteem crack my tiny boat with paddles already lost downstream I fold up into nothing toss myself in the trash drive my thinking right into the black till I … Continue reading

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#387 – “troubled end”

“troubled end”   I’m not sure what I’m missing or if God is at fault like he’d put me in to simmer but added no salt I feel flavorless bland like a scrap of dead air set aside like a … Continue reading

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#365 of 365 – ’round the bend

‘round the bend   change is coming ‘round the bend up the hill down toward the end   change for the girl deep down inside too frightened to live too angry to hide   the winds have picked up God’s … Continue reading

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#111 of 365 – “silhouette”

“silhouette”   I don’t like what I’m writing like what I’m feeling even less   I feel molested by my anger and robbed by my distress   it’s been so long since decisions were made purely for survival   with … Continue reading

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#105 of 365 – “reflections”

“reflections”   I want to unravel the unforgiving threads from this old raggedy robe   wash the angry shadows off of me that rust and corrode   I want to clear my mind of reflections of yesterday’s guilt   climb … Continue reading

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