Category Archives: Self-Worth

#463 – “grist”

“grist”   it all seems so meaningless life’s bewildering clatter the unending struggle to somehow matter is this what I’m here for to simply exist beneath these dreams God gave like some painful grist I’ve helped raise His children suffered … Continue reading

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#461 – “waning breath”

“waning breath”   I fail  in what’s been an unending succession of inaction procrastination fear and regret I am nothing without dreams but waning breath each day a little closer to a troubled death    

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#458 – 4 haiku

4 haiku     it tears so slowly excruciating, deep; the dull knife of silence       hard awakening my own well being crushed by another’s dis-ease       the air; thick, tangled words knotted up, emotions choking … Continue reading

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#445 – “bare”

“bare”   I don’t function well in marriage the wrong words come out or none come at all I go silent absent in the face of distress and I’m hopeless unhandy with what the day brings useless with no passion … Continue reading

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#391 – “locked hands”

“locked hands”   I make stupid mistakes that twist up my esteem crack my tiny boat with paddles already lost downstream I fold up into nothing toss myself in the trash drive my thinking right into the black till I … Continue reading

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#381 – 3 Haiku

3 Haiku   standing in the rain umbrella doesn’t work; no shelter from my thoughts     hours like stone, grow so heavy through my night when sleep rolls away from me       so many churches all boarded … Continue reading

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#370 – 2 Haiku

2 Haiku   the road of dreams is paved with nightmares of failure and falters of faith     so many tunnels stretched out together; daylight always visible  

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#358 of 365 – 4 Haiku

4 Haiku     one step forward―right into the mud; is this the path God wants me on?      clouds empty of coins pennies don’t really fall from heaven…just water      have faith, they tell me faith that … Continue reading

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#341 of 365 – “muddied and drawn”

 “muddied and drawn”   I feel angry today and by my own bitterness, defamed buried in envy beneath the rotten sod of shame I don’t like me like this a sunless twist of grays my neglected prayers hiding in alleys … Continue reading

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#323 of 365 – 3 Haiku

3 Haiku     thin feathers so slight tossed everywhere by the wind no real direction     bits of sound so faint there are no echoes to share of self-confidence     watching trails of smoke disappearing in the … Continue reading

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