#414 – 4 Haiku

4 Haiku about June 12, 2016

 

 

heart squeezed by anger

the easy spread of hatred

now I want a gun

 

 

for the bereaved; I

am not enlightened—I want

to kill the killers

 

 

insides torn; don’t know

how to love through rage and grief

can’t find my prayers

 

 

we are all sinking

tangled in the godlessness

of separation

 

 

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#413 – 2 Haiku

2 Haiku

 

loneliness beyond

love’s reach; last of the women

who helped raise her—gone

 

 

eyes swimming in grief

she treads in desperation

to keep from drowning

 

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#412 – 2 Haiku

2 Haiku

 

reverence beyond

words as I begin to sculpt

the World Trade Center

 

 

 

 

art’s silent prayer

for the souls and families

of so many dead

 

 

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#411 – 4 Haiku

4 Haiku

 

nature’s cruel hunger

raining down into the day

swallowing sunshine

 

 

insatiable rain

consuming all bright colors

and spitting out gray

 

 

standing in my room

praying for change; then I do

what I always do

 

 

I peel back the bark

uncover slivers of light

perhaps God hears me

 

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#410 – 2 Haiku

2 Haiku

 

corners of regret

dark echoes of a song I

never learned to sing

 

 

scratching at prayers

that sit beneath my anger

can’t seem to reach God

 

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#409 – 5 Haiku about my brother

5 Haiku about my brother

 

so much time folded

into a tiny corner

alcoholism

 

 

he is angry that

love has brought his family

and friends together

 

 

he cannot see or

feel his way through a darkness

his eyes are closed to

 

 

an octave higher

his voice climbing over truths

he cannot utter

 

 

so quiet his need

to deny the deafening

noise of his defeat

 

 

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#408 – “April Snow”

“April Snow”

 

grief

for an April snow

that has kissed

our Earth

and gone

leaving roots

hungry

for water

and the sky

hungry

for rain

and all of us

below it

trying to sing

away our pain

as we unfold

our memories

and travel

back in time

to celebrate

and party

like it’s 1999.

 

 

R.I.P. Prince Rogers Nelson

 

 

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#405 – beneath the floorboards

beneath the floorboards

  

is it too late

to be great

to circumvent

the wasted time

twisting up

my fate

 

have my dreams

once fresh

like fruit plucked

from the vine

spoiled

in the hiding places

beneath

the floorboards

of my mind

 

is what’s left

a desperate grab

to extinguish

my regret

or can I find

a stone

to carve my

life in permanent

silhouette

 

where

my prayers

leave crystals

in the sand

for futures

to reflect

 

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#404 – 4 Haiku

3 Haiku

 

no imoji to

convey the reality

of my depression

 

 

her eyes soften, sink

beneath the waves; memories

her mother lives in

 

 

in comes the season

bruised and tender from fighting

years of steadfast grief

 

 

furious rain pulls

water from the harbor and

throws it in the streets

 

 

 

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#403 – unsung

unsung

 

I am not a good soul

I tire of others

my friendships breathe shallow

beneath envy that smothers

I feed on dark rain

though I pray for the sun

as I walk my night streets

deep into the slum

where fear is deafening

and God’s grace is unsung

 

 

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