Tag Archives: Addict Behavior

#458 – 4 haiku

4 haiku     it tears so slowly excruciating, deep; the dull knife of silence       hard awakening my own well being crushed by another’s dis-ease       the air; thick, tangled words knotted up, emotions choking … Continue reading

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#457 – “sticks and mud”

“sticks and mud”   what work is this to toil the mind dig through emotions and memories intertwined looking for something I can’t seem to find   what kind of labor searching through thought wading through battles and wars I’ve … Continue reading

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#456 – “ragged weeds”

“ragged weeds”   I am not good I fall short of both truth and light, but rather walk with heavy clouds beneath a dark rain instead   hiding in the shadows of quiet omission where muted spaces grow ragged weeds … Continue reading

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#445 – “bare”

“bare”   I don’t function well in marriage the wrong words come out or none come at all I go silent absent in the face of distress and I’m hopeless unhandy with what the day brings useless with no passion … Continue reading

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#409 – 5 Haiku about my brother

5 Haiku about my brother   so much time folded into a tiny corner alcoholism     he is angry that love has brought his family and friends together     he cannot see or feel his way through a darkness his … Continue reading

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#387 – “troubled end”

“troubled end”   I’m not sure what I’m missing or if God is at fault like he’d put me in to simmer but added no salt I feel flavorless bland like a scrap of dead air set aside like a … Continue reading

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#378 – 2 Haiku

 2 Haiku     chasm waters rush through I slip, sink into deep tears never learned to swim     burning in my throat prayers jumbled up beneath tears swallowed down whole    

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#377 – 4 Haiku

4 Haiku   moving so slowly my mind stuck on waiting for the day to begin     so quick and quiet I break; so long and loud to pick up the pieces     mining in the caves so … Continue reading

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#375 – 5 Haiku

5 Haiku    she strikes her match, sets the trees on fire; she can’t help herself; Autumn     body cooling down anger heating up; massage clients that don’t show     two cowboys taken somewhere they can’t escape from … Continue reading

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#360 of 365 – 3 Haiku

3 Haiku     looks so good to drink till I remember where I ended up last time     imagination problem solved; my laptop smashed in a million bits     life aggravated thrown out of balance; letters from … Continue reading

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