Tag Archives: Anxiety

#457 – “sticks and mud”

“sticks and mud”   what work is this to toil the mind dig through emotions and memories intertwined looking for something I can’t seem to find   what kind of labor searching through thought wading through battles and wars I’ve … Continue reading

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#456 – “ragged weeds”

“ragged weeds”   I am not good I fall short of both truth and light, but rather walk with heavy clouds beneath a dark rain instead   hiding in the shadows of quiet omission where muted spaces grow ragged weeds … Continue reading

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#448 – 4 haiku

4 haiku   inadequacy surfaces again; I am a disappointment   marriage hurts sometimes a room of mirrors that show only your worst self     when is love enough to erase the discontent disagreement leaves     I no … Continue reading

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#445 – “bare”

“bare”   I don’t function well in marriage the wrong words come out or none come at all I go silent absent in the face of distress and I’m hopeless unhandy with what the day brings useless with no passion … Continue reading

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#430 – the river

the river   the river is cold and brutal today   rough as it carries my comfort away   the air abrasive and course like sandpaper   my fix, equilibrium gone like thin vapor   I feel lost like a … Continue reading

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#420 – 3 Haiku – 1 minute before my birthday

3 Haiku – 1 minute before my birthday     leaves are turning red so eager to drop and fly from this aging tree     dreams so close they burn turn both doubt and delay to ash I blow … Continue reading

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#387 – “troubled end”

“troubled end”   I’m not sure what I’m missing or if God is at fault like he’d put me in to simmer but added no salt I feel flavorless bland like a scrap of dead air set aside like a … Continue reading

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#385 – 3 Haiku

3 Haiku   so restless to live days slip through my eagerness for tomorrow’s gifts   smiley face bracelet for the times I can’t muster one up on my face    reading back over so much of my life spilled … Continue reading

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#382 – 5 Haiku

5 Haiku   in limbo; my hours waste into anger; waiting for the cable man      tangled up thinking dead ends and darkness on my old neural pathways      weight against my palms holding so many questions my … Continue reading

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#378 – 2 Haiku

 2 Haiku     chasm waters rush through I slip, sink into deep tears never learned to swim     burning in my throat prayers jumbled up beneath tears swallowed down whole    

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