Tag Archives: Disappointment

#395 – an unlovely place

an unlovely place   so heavy this minutia renders the day so lonely its dreams having passed away I wake to the iron air buckling beneath the sheer tax of hope and the burden of grief    it’s such a … Continue reading

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#391 – “locked hands”

“locked hands”   I make stupid mistakes that twist up my esteem crack my tiny boat with paddles already lost downstream I fold up into nothing toss myself in the trash drive my thinking right into the black till I … Continue reading

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#366 – 2 Haiku

2 Haiku     morning train whistle carrying my frustrations away from traffic     angry again; wheels spinning in mud; car stuck on the road to nowhere    

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#341 of 365 – “muddied and drawn”

 “muddied and drawn”   I feel angry today and by my own bitterness, defamed buried in envy beneath the rotten sod of shame I don’t like me like this a sunless twist of grays my neglected prayers hiding in alleys … Continue reading

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#322 of 365 – 4 Haiku

 4 Haiku     later he’ll want to apologize to his mom for the son he was       she is quiet, still leaves settling in the sudden hush after a storm       tears squeezed from her … Continue reading

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#214 of 365 – 5 Haiku about failure

5 Haiku about failure   moment of defeat I’m stuck in the mud again dirtied by mistakes     they say, “in God’s time” don’t know what that means, except that it’s not right now     a treacherous noise … Continue reading

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#204 of 365 – 4 Haiku about my wife

4 Haiku about my wife     a Marine’s daughter she’s stronger than people like black women to be     sensitivity matched only by the metal she wears over it     can’t pass a baby without motherhood starting … Continue reading

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#203 of 365 – “melee”

“melee”    truth like thunder breaks into my bones   with a rain of crushing consequences heavy like stones   I am a liar through denial and blatant omission   my trustworthiness a ghost, an unstable apparition   I linger, … Continue reading

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