Tag Archives: Marriage

#459 – “secrets to save”

“secrets to save”   I want this pain to stop this panic to allay this sinking  to end this crushing guilt to go away I want to drink until I’m perfect until I’m healthy and brave drink until I’m honest … Continue reading

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#458 – 4 haiku

4 haiku     it tears so slowly excruciating, deep; the dull knife of silence       hard awakening my own well being crushed by another’s dis-ease       the air; thick, tangled words knotted up, emotions choking … Continue reading

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#456 – “ragged weeds”

“ragged weeds”   I am not good I fall short of both truth and light, but rather walk with heavy clouds beneath a dark rain instead   hiding in the shadows of quiet omission where muted spaces grow ragged weeds … Continue reading

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#448 – 4 haiku

4 haiku   inadequacy surfaces again; I am a disappointment   marriage hurts sometimes a room of mirrors that show only your worst self     when is love enough to erase the discontent disagreement leaves     I no … Continue reading

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#445 – “bare”

“bare”   I don’t function well in marriage the wrong words come out or none come at all I go silent absent in the face of distress and I’m hopeless unhandy with what the day brings useless with no passion … Continue reading

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#375 – 5 Haiku

5 Haiku    she strikes her match, sets the trees on fire; she can’t help herself; Autumn     body cooling down anger heating up; massage clients that don’t show     two cowboys taken somewhere they can’t escape from … Continue reading

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#334 of 365 – 4 Haiku

4 Haiku     hands, old with grieving gently touch the memories wall of fallen souls       eyes wading in grief warm, naked with loneliness and longing for joy       soft change in her breaths dreams … Continue reading

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#313 of 365 – 2 Haiku

2 Haiku   no uncles are left only aunts and cousins now our tree thinning out     her husband lowered casket closed, she suddenly seemed painfully small    

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#285 of 365 – 3 Haiku

3 Haiku    change and cigarettes he sits lowly; one gold tooth all the others brown       so many of us together, but not really stuck on the highway       Sundays, a work day coming home … Continue reading

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#278 of 365 – “where the milk of freedom spills”

“where the milk of freedom spills”     I feel sluggish and uncooperative don’t want to do my chores I want to linger under sunsets and meander on the shores I don’t want to be a parent or a daughter … Continue reading

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